Friday, November 21, 2003

The World is as Wrecked Up as My Applications to McKinsey & Bain

It's Mom's birthday today. Tried calling her several times to no avail.At last left a message with Abg Chik. Another suicide bombing in Istanbul. Two of them in fact, only been 4 days since that synagogue blast,killing mostly passerbys -Muslims, practising or not they dont care. About 60 civillians in total have been killed. Not long before that, a posh expat housing estate in Riyadh was blown up. Cant recall the death toll but they were all from the neighbouring countries. Chaos everywhere. Depressing. What' s happening to this world? What's happening to Muslims? It's getting too much now..out of hand. Judgement Day closing in?

I used to think that September 11 was masterminded by the Jews. Someone told me that no Jews went to work at the building that day. The whole AlQaeda saga was a fallacy, a myth planted to frame the already-disintegrating Muslim community, pushing us farther into the negative stereotypical image. (reminds me of Anwar's press statement upon being ousted...poor guy. It should have been him running the country now). Call me anti semitic..aren't we all supposed to be if we are truly Muslims? I have a friend named X. He's British of Iranian-Israeli parentage. We went to Melbourne together but we never gelled. Why? Cos there was this invisible barrier that not only separated our religious beliefs but separated us as humans.He wasn't orthodox but he was certainly pro Israel... that and the fact that we are quite different characters and this other thing which i really shouldnt say. But I guess our relationship improved when we got back to London. Speaking of which my relationship with Mr J also improved after a year being away from each other. We hated each other's guts. Its one of those non-verbal signals u get that doesnt need verifying to be sure. I dont anymore, not sure if he still does. I think my year abroad was a blessing in a lot of ways, i'm not as tensed as i used to be, fretting about everything. I'm still a Stress Queen though. But hey, thats better than being the Queen of the Queens, right?

Still on war. Dulu, I refused to fully absorb the notion that a fellow Muslim would do such a thing (that's why I swallowed the "Jewish theory" unquestionably). And sometimes, I felt as though America deserved 9/11, I still do actually. The ppl were too self-involved, ignorant, conceited, arrogant- they think the whole world is America and vice versa. Yeap, it wasn't just Mr President with a problem. And...I hate the nuclear tech policy? Big bullies, thats what the superpowers are. Pisses me off. Yes, I must admit that Americans are by far a lot friendlier and warmer than many other nationalities, always making you feel welcomed. (My boss in Connecticut is the best boss anyone could imagine having). But I wish I could shut them up after 9/11. Tell them off for whinging cos whinging is only allowed if you are working on the shitty Droppo for your LINK Project. I want to tell them to reflect on themselves instead. Why do ppl hate their country so much? It's all because of their own playwrighting. You think you have the power to dictate the course of the world, well someone out there is trying to tell you otherwise. And in case they're lost in time (not just in culture), somone should remind them that it's been 2 years already. For God's sake... MOVE ON!!!

I want to say that I'll always support all Islamic Movements one way or another. But recent developments or rather mis-developments have put me off the idea. It makes me rethink my position. My anti-American sentiment still stands, no doubt... Boycott McD, Coke, etc...but despite the Oil issue, which i've managed to shelve at any given instant, i'm beginning to feel that maybe, just maybe, stemming terrorism through counter aggression is the only option. How can we substantiate that we wont have as many bombings if Iraq and Afghan were left alone?

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